Lord give me the strength

To not smother my parents tonight as they sleep. God leave me alone while I'm reading. I mean my clothes arrived but damn so things are just more important right now. I really need to get out of here...when the medical bills are paid I will own a mansion all too myself unless of course I get married within the next century. I can picture it now...me on the front porch of my house alone with cats and I'm steadily sneezing due to the allergy. And then I go to rock in my rocker fall out of it and break a hip and die for the sheer pleasure of not being bound to a walker. I need to shut up.