Howdy Ya'll
Well it is now 24 days clean and I am doing pretty well with it. I can't wait to make it to a whole month. I don't know how long it has been since I would have been a month clean. Let's see about five years ago. I will make it.
And I forgot to mention that my grandfather did pass away on September 22nd. Only a couple of days after he was told to start preparing. I am actually happy that he went. He was suffering beyond all comprehension. Unfortunately, I did not get to go to his funeral because I was in rehab/detox. But, I know he knows that I was there and trying to get better for him as well as myself.
Here is a weird story for you. While I was at rehab my mother brought me a rubberband that my grandfather was wearing in the hospital. He would always wear a rubberband and when you asked him why he was wearing it he would say "You never know I might need this." He was quirky like that. Well my grandmother sent me the last rubberband he had wore and of course I cry and put it on. A few days later Warren's (one of the guys in rehab with me) girlfriend stops by and asks me why I am wearing a rubberband. I told her that it was my grandfather's but that I knew I would be on the right track or making the right decision when I would either lose the rubberband without knowing...my grandfather would let me know by the band breaking. Well after being in detox for 14 days I was headed over to the 21 day program. The house there was not fit for a homeless person. So on my judgement I called my parents and told them that they had to come get me because I refused to live under those conditions (plus I had to pay $7,000 for the program). So I left that morning. Later that night I went over to Kelly and Travis' (friends from the detox house) and Warren and his girlfriend were there. Beth (girlfriend) asks me if I still have my rubberband on. I reply yes and go to reach for it on my right wrist and it is gone. I have no clue where it went. But Beth was like your grandfather is watching over you because it happened just like you said it would.
Please note that I am totally being serious about the rubberband coming up missing. It freaked me out but it lets me know I have someone looking out for me.
