Thinking...

I spent almost the entire weekend with Cheri. Friday, I headed to Hagerstown to meet up with her at her apartment. From there we went to Panera Bread to grab a quick bite to eat to be taken back to the apartment. We also went to WalMart where I picked up The Da Vinci Code. Back at the apartment we watched Little Britain. Wonderful!! Vicky Pollard is my favorite character and Bubble De Vere. Thank you Catroina for lending this to me. I promise I will have it back to you shortly.

Saturday Cheri and I went to Frederick to see The Return with my girlfriend Sarah Michelle Gellar. We ate at Panera again...but we took it in the theatre with us. The movie was actually good. I enjoyed it. Not scary as I thought it would be but suspense filled anyway.

Spending so much time with Cheri makes me realize that I really want to be in a relationship. I think that is what I am lacking in my life. Just the little things that Cheri says and does gets me thinking about how I really need to start developing some type of lasting relationship beyond a friendship. I do not know if it is the clock ticking or what. It is not like I can have children or anything in a gay relationship...and I mean the old fashioned way. But there is something missing in my life and I truly believe that it is a relationship. Anyone out there have someone they think I would get along with let me know.

Oh but yes...

Life at this point is so routine. I honestly feel like I am a Sim and there is someone controlling my every move. I mean what happened to the randomness I used to call "living"? It is like when you have graduated high school and you have to start being "responsible" you lose the will to just do things out of the blue. Road trips, staying up for three days straight, and what not. You just don't have time to do any of that stuff. We get into this mode that is just so structured.

How fucking boring. I am going to try to just start doing things out of the blue. I am tired of getting up in the morning, driving to work, working, lunch, back to work, driving home, watching television or reading, and then bed. Just to repeat the same bullshit the next day. I want to start taking road trips again. Seeing new things and meeting new people. I have lost that part of me and it is sad. I think that when we become "responsible" adults we just lose it. We do not mean to but it happens.

Well this child is taking back what he lost.

Love you long time...

The title of today's entry has nothing to do with this entry. I am listening to Nelly Furtado and that is my favorite part of "Maneater."

Today is Chloe's (April's baby) un-birthday. We are celebrating her original birth date if she would have stayed in for the full nine months. I think that it is a cute idea. Chlonique as I call her has gotten so big and in a short time. You figure she was just a little over four pounds when she was born and now she is up to almost nine pounds. Damn how time flies. I guess since I was there from birth it is just more noticable. Now if I would have been there from the moment of conception that would have been really noticable. Bad thoughts bad thoughts. I am really happy though that everything is going well for her and the family.

I had to work yesterday. The person that was supposed to work had to have off because he had to work on site today. I don't mind it. But, they better not think that I am working my normal Saturday. Huh..uh..honey! Not gonna happen. Plus, it is Thanksgiving weekend. You must of fell off of the wagon to think I'm not having myself a little four day vaykay. Anywho, the two Irish interns...Chris and Bryan were hammered when they came in. They reeked of alcohol. I only made them stay for like an hour and a half when they are supposed to work for about 5 hours. That is just because I am a nice person and I know what is it like being intoxicated and having to work. It sucks.

Well enough for now. Boobles! (April is the only one who will get this).